chapter 56 - recommending myself to you

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slight nsfw towards the end of the chapter!

i'm not very well versed in...translating nsfw things, so please leave comments if there is anything i can improve on!

Xie Ning’s shoulders trembled as he lowered his head, and the back of his neck flushed.

Zhuang Yan hugged him, not letting go, and asked again, “Can we, boyfriend?”

Xie Ning took a couple of deep breaths and was suddenly glad that Zhuang Yan was holding him up from behind so he wasn’t able to see the blush that was spreading across his face. It made him a little less embarrassed.

He lowered his gaze and tried to steady himself. “No, we can’t.”

Zhuang Yan’s hand was on his waist, and had, without his knowing, reached under the loose hem of his shirt.

His cold fingertips touched his skin, causing Xie Ning’s entire body to shudder, and he fell completely into Zhuang Yan’s embrace.

Zhuang Yan asked, a little unhappily, “Why can’t we?”

Xie Ning’s heart was beating loudly. “...I-I’m not ready yet.”

“What are you supposed to be ready for?” Zhuang Yan raised his eyebrows and whispered into his ear in a low voice. “I want to sleep with my boyfriend in the same room, isn’t that only to be expected?”

Xie Ning didn’t want to talk about this anymore with him, and said softly, “Can you let go of me first?”

Zhuang Yan smiled softly, released his hands, and took a few steps back. He asked, “Was it uncomfortable? I’m sorry, I forgot I still have the smell of alcohol on me.”

Xie Ning let out a breath, then turned around to look at him and shook his head slowly.

At that time, the smell of alcohol on Zhuang Yan’s body was almost all dispersed, and there was only a tiny, light smell of alcohol left. It was almost undetectable, and could only be whiffed when Zhuang Yan was hugging him tightly.

Just before, Xie Ning’s nose still smelled that bit of alcohol, and he even felt drunk himself, and only now did he feel a little more sober.

He looked at Zhuang Yan and said, “I still haven’t made mental preparations yet.”

Zhuang Yan looked at him quietly for a few seconds, and suddenly asked, “Darling, were you thinking of the wrong thing?”

Xie Ning paused. “Huh?”

Zhuang Yan raised his eyebrow and smiled. “Did you think...I wanted to do something to you?”

“No!”

Xie Ning’s face burned, and he raised his head forcefully.

He seemed to think of something, and his face was so red that it seemed like it was almost smoking. A large patch of red spread upwards towards his face as well.

Zhuang Yan’s heart moved a bit, and he smiled to say, “You really did think of something?”

Naturally, Xie Ning couldn’t admit it, and his head shook like a bobblehead. “I didn’t!”

“You’re lying again.” Zhuang Yan couldn’t help it, and flicked the tip of his nose.

Xie Ning’s gaze moved around, yet his face bloomed with peach and plum colored blush, and it was a very beautiful red.

Zhuang Yan sighed. “So, you did think about it.”

Xie Ning continued to be stubborn. “...I didn’t!”

Zhuang Yan paid no attention to it. “Now I’m curious. What did you think of?”

Xie Ning simply turned his head away and ignored him.

“I’ll stop teasing you.” Zhuang Yan said with a smile. “I finally got the status of boyfriend; shouldn’t I ask for some actual benefits?”

Xie Ning’s lips trembled slightly, as if he was emotionally moved.

Zhuang Yan took advantage of his victory and kept pressing the matter. “Look at the other couples. Which ones live under the same roof but still sleep in separate beds? If people found out, wouldn’t they misunderstand that something was wrong with our feelings for each other?”

Xie Ning frowned slightly. “...Other people wouldn’t know.”

Zhuang Yan sighed. “Then forget it.”

For some reason, Xie Ning felt himself softening up and felt like he wasn’t treating Zhuang Yan well.

Zhuang Yan said, “It’s getting late. I’ll go take a shower, and you should sleep earlier as well.”

Xie Ning slowly nodded his head. “...Mmn.”

Zhuang Yan finished showering and naturally changed into his pajamas. He pushed open the door to Xie Ning’s room and flipped over to crawl onto the bed.

Xie Ning, who was lying on the bed, about to sleep: “...!”

Xie Ning very naturally moved his body to the side.

Before, to help him with his insomnia, Zhuang Yan would often come to his room and look at him to make sure he fell asleep before he left. He was used to it, and didn’t think there was anything wrong with this action.

Zhuang Yan thus took up half the bed and held him in his embrace.

When Xie Ning was surrounded by his breath, he finally reacted.

Didn’t he just reject Zhuang Yan earlier? How come he still ran over here, like he was going to sleep here?

Xie Ning’s heart thumped and he asked, “W-why did you come over?”

Zhuang Yan pretended to sigh and said, “There’s no other way. My boyfriend doesn’t want to go to my place to sleep, so I can only come here to sleep instead.”

Xie Ning: “...”

He said, absentmindedly, “What’s the difference?”

“Of course there’s a difference.” Zhuang Yan said seriously. “Right now, I’m recommending myself to you.”

Xie Ning paused, and suspected that he’d heard it wrong. “Recommending...what?”

Zhuang Yan repeated his words clearly. “Recommending myself to you.”

Xie Ning was speechless for a moment.

Zhuang Yan really did stay abroad for too long, and lost his Chinese literacy somewhere.

Could the phrase be used that way?

Xie Ning could only stay silent.

Until now, he still naively thought that there wasn’t any difference between today and the other days Zhuang Yan hugged him to sleep.

That’s to say, the parts of his body that were closely pressed to Zhuang Yan’s body, were a bit too hot.

He didn’t know if it was his heat or Zhuang Yan’s heat, but either way, there wasn’t much of a difference.

It was so hot that it seemed like he was burning.

Xie Ning subconsciously licked his dry lips.

Zhuang Yan’s breath turned deep and he lowered his head to cover Xie Ning’s lips.

Xie Ning: “!!!”

The bed was obviously quite big, but Xie Ning felt like it was small for some reason. Zhuang Yan was hugging him too tightly, as if he would fall to the ground if he let go.

Zhuang Yan’s hand was on his waist and wrapped tightly around him, so Xie Ning was squashed in the small space between Zhuang Yan’s arms and chest; his upper body was mostly pressed against him.

Since they were so close to each other and Xie Ning was currently not paying attention, Zhuang Yan found the right timing and swooped right in, sweeping across Xie Ning’s mouth and lips intensely.

When the kiss ended, Xie Ning’s hand was grabbing his pajamas, and his breathing became unstable.

Both pairs of legs became intertwined with each other at some point.

Xie Ning suddenly felt even hotter.

He felt like he was a rabbit that was put into the oven; he was almost unbearably hot from head to toe, but there was nowhere to escape from, so he could only meaninglessly put his legs down and whimper, waiting to be cooked little by little.

At that moment, Zhuang Yan asked him, “NingNing, what did you just think I was going to do to you?”

Xie Ning suddenly widened his eyes!

The fanciful images he had in his mind flashed, one by one. If it was any other time, he would only be blushing at most.

But right now—

He and Zhuang Yan had just finished kissing, and his entire body was still in Zhuang Yan’s arms. The places they were touching were still getting hotter.

If it was a spark, then it unexpectedly lit the fuse and set off a burst of fireworks in Xie Ning’s mind.

The burst of fireworks made his head dizzy and his throat dry.

Xie Ning’s breathing started to quicken, and he put his hands softly on Zhuang Yan’s chest to rub the collar of his pajamas, as if it was his last struggle.

The oven seemed like it was turned on, and with a “dingdong”, it started steaming.

Mr. Rabbit was hot enough to start steaming.

Zhuang Yan raised his eyebrow, surprised.

In this position, there was no hiding each other’s reaction.

The look in Zhuang Yan’s eyes became deeper, and he said, “This reaction of yours…”

Seemed a little too big.

Xie Ning looked away with great effort. “I wasn’t thinking of anything.”

But in this sort of situation, it probably wasn’t very convincing.

Zhuang Yan chuckled.

His breathing became heavier.

Imagine. Your beloved is lying in your embrace without any resistance, with reddened eye corners while he pulls at your collar, and his lips that were just ravaged were glossy and shiny. His eyes seemed misty, and foggily looked over…

It would be impossible for even the most indifferent person to not have a reaction.

Especially Zhuang Yan.

Zhuang Yan’s Adam’s apple rolled a bit, and his hand lifted the hem of Xie Ning’s pajamas and slowly entered.

Zhuang Yan hadn’t expected things to develop to this point.

Well, he couldn’t say that. He did think about it, but he didn’t think it would be tonight.

Only the heavens knew that he intended to ask for just the benefit of sharing a bed with Xie Ning today.

He didn’t think that, after habitually flirting with Xie Ning for a bit, that he’d turn him into this.

He didn’t know how much Xie Ning would accept, so he stared at Xie Ning’s expression during every movement.

Afraid that he would be uncomfortable.

Zhuang Yan pulled away Xie Ning’s hand, and after a little, he put it on Zhuang Yan’s shoulder as if he was looking to be hugged.

Zhuang Yan seemed to smile for a moment, then pressed him down and started to unbutton his shirt from the collar, slowly moving down.

Kisses also fell, starting from his neck, and Zhuang Yan gave a couple extra kisses on his collarbone.

Mr. Rabbit felt like he was being skinned.

What about afterwards?

Was he going to be put on a grill and grilled?

And after that, nothing.

Zhuang Yan kissed him repeatedly, and Xie Ning seemed to be a little more clear-minded when he called out to him. “Zhuang Yan.”

“Mmn.”

At this time, hearing his name called in such a soft voice by his lover, the fire in Zhuang Yan’s heart burned even more fiercely.

The night was full of a deep darkness, and the bedside lamp glowed faintly, lighting up Xie Ning’s face.

Xie Ning’s appearance is one that makes anyone sigh “looks good” when they see him.

But Zhuang Yan didn’t think that, after he was lit with a bit of passion, that his cold face would become so tempting, making others infatuated and their imagination run wild.

Zhuang Yan looked at him for a while, then suddenly pressed him down on the bed and bit his lip.

The kiss then became rougher.

Their bodies sank into the soft sheets. Xie Ning was confused for a bit, and began to tremble.

Zhuang Yan’s kiss right now was too aggressive and too barbaric, which made him feel almost scared.

He called again, “Zhuang Yan.”

Zhuang Yan pecked his face softly, released his hands that were keeping him down, and said, “I’m here.”

Xie Ning, for some reason, suddenly felt relieved.

Zhuang Yan hugged him again, squishing him a couple times, and asked in his low voice, “I’ll use my hand to...help you?”

Xie Ning’s face started to burn again.

After a while, he turned his head aside, and, with red eartips, nodded.

Mr. Rabbit was put onto the grill.

The fire started from his heart, and spread to every corner of his body.

The heat rose.

The fear of being completely roasted made Mr. Rabbit’s eyes teary, and he whimpered as if he was seeking help.

His body seemed like it was being turned over and over atop the grill.

Xie Ning raised his neck, and his white neck was covered with sweat. His sweat slipped downwards, and pooled on his collarbone.

His throat moved up and down, as if he was swallowing something, and his lips were slightly open, but he wasn’t able to make an audible sound.

The fire grew stronger and stronger, and Mr. Rabbit’s desire to survive made him start to struggle.

Then, he was suppressed, and his limbs seemed to be held by something.

A sense of stimulation with some comfortableness swept over him.

Xie Ning felt like his hands were limp, his feet were limp, and his waist was limp. His entire body was soft, but there was only one place that was hot and hard.

His consciousness gradually began to get foggy.

Mr. Rabbit thought: Am I finally being roasted to death?

The sensation of heat slowly spread to his five viscera and six bowels.

For a while…

His legs spasmed twice, and stopped moving.

Mr. Rabbit was thoroughly roasted.

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Author’s Note: Mr. Rabbit is thoroughly roasted, and Mr. Blue Whale can eat him now.

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